Two Week Recap

The past two weeks have been a much needed distraction. Two weeks off of work for Christmas Break, our anniversary trip to Chicago, the holiday parties, catching up with good friends, and our New Years’s Eve weekend at my sisters have definitely served to keep mind from thinking too much about our future. I wish the two week wait would go by as quickly as these last two weeks have! 

The teacher in me asks; So what have I learned? 

1) In our trip to the city to celebrate our six years of marriage I was reminded yet again that our love for each other is by far strong enough to get through anything. We grow closer everyday. We have every reason in the world to drift apart, but we don’t. What a blessing. Several of my close friends iterated to me that they see us as a couple that can do anything. I am proud that people see us in that light. Our marriage has always been my number one priority and it’s comforting to know that I am succeeding in at least one aspect of my life. Here’s to hoping year number 7 is a lucky one for us! 

  

2) During our family Christmas gatherings, I basked in the glow of my love for them and their love for me. Brett’s family is so kind, inviting, laid back, and genuine. We spent a few hours on Christmas Day going through a family history scrapbook. It was marvelous. My heart was filled with wonder as we saw photos of great grandparents and the like. It was bittersweet in a way though, knowing that I may be the one to end the continuing of such a proud family name. For some reason, though, I know that I won’t. My family Christmas, as always, was a blast! Between my two siblings and their SOs we are all 7 years apart, top to bottom and no one has kids! So lots of drinking and games ensued. My family is the next most important thing in my life, besides my marriage. My siblings and their SOs are without a doubt my four best friends. How cool is that? Maybe this fork in our road to baby will lead us to a life where our kids can be the same age as their cousins? That would be an adventure. 

3) It’s about to be a new year. So what have I learned from this one? I remember that at this time last year I was the most hopeful person I had ever been. I mean we were doing IVF-our problems would be solved! Baby C would be here by year’s end! How quickly, that hope faded with 3 failed IUIs and 2 IVF transfers both ending in miscarriage. For some reason, I can’t put my finger on it, but I’m feeling hopeful again. In just this past month, we’ve become more open to the idea of pre-implantation genetic screening, embryo adoption, and even traditional adoption. We know now that the road won’t be easy. We know that we might not get exactly what we want, when we want it. I’m sure that there will be surprises along the way this year but this time I’m aware of that. I have learned that God gives us peace beyond all understanding, which is where I am at now. At peace. It’s okay if it takes years for our miracle. It’s fine if we fail. God has a plan for our life, he promises to give us a hope and a future. I’m grateful for the relationship I’ve had with God this past year-something I never truly considered before, when my life was going just the way I had planned. It’s crazy how much I learned about myself and my life in just two weeks time. 

I pray that the new year brings a vast amount of hope, love, and peace to my life and to yours as well.